I guess I just need to write poetry

I guess I just wanna write poetryTo let the words flow from meCreating harmonyAs art grows from meLike the branches on a treeEloquently hanging free I guess I just wanna write poetryMy tears are soaking meAs my feelings start flowing freeLike a deeply rooted treeI usually sit here stoically But I’m ready to write poetryI’m…

Growing Pains

Growth doesn’t always feel good. You may not even feel as though you are growing. I faced this head on at the end of my pregnancy. I had been on bed rest for a month already and went into preterm labor, having contractions and all the early labor symptoms, loss of appetite, nausea, diarrhea, insomnia,…

Update!

I know I have been incredibly inconsistent and distant on here.. Let me explain why. I was in the third trimester of pregnancy with my daughter and went into preterm labor at 32 weeks, I had already been on bed rest since the beginning of the third trimester, so you can imagine my stress. I…

People Change

People change. People are in a constant evolution. People go through different seasons, seasons in which take them down different paths. People fall. People grow. People are made to change, made to create and destroy, made to be shifting and moving energies. Someone said to me once “when someone shows you who they are, believe…

No Fear

We are spirits, energy, consciousness, or whatever you want to call it, before, after, and while we are bodies. Our bodies are merely temporary aspects of our journeys, as part of our awakening process. With this, there is no reason for fear. There is no reason not to simply trust your higher power, trust your…

Faith

There is a certain word called faith, it is commonly associated with religion and a belief system. Sometimes it gets a negative connotation, but let me go a little deeper into the power and meaning of this word. Faith is about trust, hope, belief, and even peace. It is about giving up your own control,…

The Pull To Fear

Yesterday life really taught me something. With some honesty, I have been experiencing a bit of a strange phase in my own mentality and emotional well being. I began to feel better than ever, my head was feeling clearer, my heart felt more connected, I felt energy and vitality, motivation, everything seemed to be more…

Opinion About Popular Topics

There have been many issues brought to the public eye about equal rights and destigmatization of mental health conditions in the past several years. This is great. Equal rights are essential and all people deserve love and fair treatment no matter their gender, race, sexual orientation, etc. Destigmatization is also absolutely essential, nobody should feel…

One Of Those Days

There are days where I wish I could search on google “how to be happy” and find a five minute fix to problems I have created or allowed. Some days I am tired and I just want someone or something else to solve everything for me. Recently I had one of those days, one of…

What is Self Love?

Self love is not about thinking you’re the shit. I suffered from anorexia for thirteen years and so of course I have learned all about the importance of self love. If you look into it, it’s all about selfies and “knowing your worth.” This is not self love, because it is still about finding a…

Victor Vs. Victim

It seems we have gotten incredibly good and taking a victim stance to the world and our lives. It works, maybe it even serves us, in a lot of circumstances. If you are a victim then what accountability is there to take? If you are a victim then what changes should you make? What areas…

The Power Of Vulnerability

Vulnerability is a tremendous act of courage. When being vulnerable you invite others to see you just as you are, and that means they also have the choice to judge, criticize, ridicule or invalidate you. You open that door, you give them that ability, and that can leave us feeling naked and unsafe. Although when…

The Power of Thought

Thoughts are like the seeds of our reality, the water to our emotions. We can have one thought, and that thought leads to another, and another, we decide to jump on a train in our minds, and whatever the energy of those thoughts may be, it will have an impact on your emotions and body.…

The Power Of Intention & Belief

There have been two things that have been constant in my mind for the last two years, 1. I need to heal, 2. I am going to heal. The first is an awareness, which is essential for change, the second has been an intention and belief, which is essential for growth. One thought, one perception,…

Shame

Alright. Let’s get real. I am pregnant now, and pregnancy can bring up some real weird feelings of shame. There is so much that comes along, shame about deserving the baby versus women who have been relentlessly trying to get pregnant to no avail. Shame regarding how my body looks now, and the shame that…

Soul Vs. Ego

We have the ego, which is how you would describe yourself, the identity you have created based on your perceptions. We then have the soul, which is pure consciousness, it is love based, and cannot be described, it simply is. The ego is what drives you towards greed, selfishness, lust, deception, manipulation, your care for…

The Value of Pain

This is what persevering through pain has provided; The mentality of gratitude, humility, strength, joy in the simple things, living passionately, wisdom…. It’s been an exploratory journey, which led to awakening, it shed light on the difference between band-aids and genuine healing, it brought compassion, and the ability to truly be able to help others…

This is Life

We come into our bodies with no guarantees. We start shaping our perceptions-beliefs-realities. We experience life and the emotions that come along with it, pain, joy, fear, love.. We encounter rock bottoms, to encounter wisdom. We fall low, so we can fly higher. We grow and evolve. We are here to love and create, and…

Trauma

Most things in our minds have a path, one connection that lead to another, that lead to another, and then comes a belief or perception, something that integrates into our thought pattern, behaviors, personality. Then there are those things that explode your mind, there wasn’t a direct path there, a chronological series of perceptions and…